Faithful.

“Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised.”
Job 1:21 NIV

God is so faithful. He has proven it over and over again throughout the Bible and throughout out my own life. He is unshakable, unchanging and unrelenting in His faithfulness. In good times and bad, He is the same. If His faithfulness depended on my response to my circumstances, let’s just say I’d be in a world of hurt right now. Thankfully it doesn’t. I look at Job and the unimaginable suffering he endured and yet he chose to praise God for His faithfulness. I wonder if I could do that.

On January 12th my Aunt Judy died after a very long struggle with alcohol addiction. She was my mom’s baby sister. For years I watched Aunt Judy rehab and relapse until she finally gave in to the desire and need for the alcohol. I also watched my mom struggle to help her. She counseled and prayed and she was there for her time after time. She did what she could until she finally had no choice but to make the agonizing decision to let go.

Even though we all knew what was inevitable, it was still extremely difficult when Aunt Judy died. My mom had already let go of her precious baby sister a year or so before and yet when the moment came, she grieved. This was her sister and the wound of her death was deep and painful.

God is so faithful. In the midst of my mom’s grief He made His presence known in supernaturally unmistakable ways. He reached down and gave her the warmest, deepest hug at just the right moment. He orchestrated unexplainable events that brought comfort only He could provide and He sent people across her path who encouraged and supported her exactly when she needed it.

On December 30th, about two weeks before Aunt Judy died, my grandson, my mom’s great-grandson, Fletcher Theophilus Higgins was born. This little creation filled our hearts to overflowing. We didn’t know that in the midst of our celebration over this new life there would be the sadness of the end of another, but God knew.

A few days after Aunt Judy’s memorial service, my mom and I were talking and she shared all of the ways God had shown Himself to her in the days before. During worship at her women’s Bible study at her church they were singing Matt Redman’s “Blessed Be You Name”.

You give and take away. You give and take away. My heart will choose to say, Lord Blessed Be Your Name

God is so faithful. He knows who we are and what we need and He supplies our needs even before we ask. God knew Aunt Judy would die and leave a tremendous hole in my mom’s heart but He also knew Fletcher would be born and would fill up that hole. I am so thankful for my mom and the amazing example of faith she provides. She has taught me so much over the years but I was reminded again by watching her through this experience that If you truly rely on God for your daily bread, He will provide in ways you cannot imagine.

God thank you for being faithful to me even though I falter and doubt and struggle and sin. You have my back! You give and take away but my heart will choose to say LORD blessed be your glorious name.

-Lori

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A Call to Persevere {based on Jude 22 & 23}

Be merciful to those who struggle with doubt,
their uncertainty no excuse to shut them out.

Alone in the world they search and they roam,
show them the way, lead them home!

Save others by snatching them from the fiames of the fire,
the path they are on is destructive and dire.

You know the truth, you know the way,
salvation is easy, tell them today!

Show mercy to others but be on your guard,
persevere in your faith through often it’s hard.

Hate what is evil and love what is right,
conform not to the world but be bathed in God’s light.

“To him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy – to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore.” Jude 24-25

-Lori

© poetry copyright Lori Higgins, photography copyright Zackary Higgins

Motherhood & stuff: babies are awesome.

Babies
 are 
awesome! 
My 
husband
 would
 disagree
 with 
me.
  He 
thinks
 babies
 are 
just
 “little
 pink
 Yoda’s 
that 
spew 
baby 
body 
fluids.”
 Well, he’s 
right
 about 
the
 spewing 
part, I suppose, 
but 
they 
are 
also 
amazing
 little 
creatures 
that 
can 
melt 
even 
the 
coldest
 heart
with 
one 
little
 smile.  
When 
they 
grasp 
your
 finger
 with 
a 
tiny 
hand 
or 
fall 
asleep
 in 
your
arms
 they
 are
 pure 
innocence 
and
 can 
almost 
make
 you
 forget 
about 
the
 troubles
 of 
the
 world.
 What
 an
 amazing 
gift!

Unfortunately, 
those 
“Gerber 
moments” 
are 
just 
that…
moments.
  In 
real 
life, 
the 
other
 22 
hours 
and 
37
 minutes
 of 
the 
day
 are
 filled
 with 
feeding,
 crying, 
dirty 
diapers, 
feeding,
 cleaning 
spit‐up
 off 
of 
the 
arm
 of 
the
 chair 
(…again), 
laundry, 
crying, 
diapers, 
bath
time,
 feeding, 
searching 
for 
the 
last lost 
pacifier, 
diapers, 
feeding,
 laundry. . . 
you
 get 
the 
idea.
 It’s
 amazing
 how
 one 
little
 critter
 can
 require 
so
 much.  
Babies
 rely
 on 
us 
for 
their
 every
 need.

Here 
comes 
the
 segway: 
we 
are 
God’s 
babies.  
Now
 don’t
 get 
me 
wrong,
 we
 can’t
 remain 
like 
infants
 in
 our
 knowledge
 and
 understanding 
of 
Christ 
(Hebrews
 5:
13‐14) 
but 
we
 must learn to 
rely
 on 
Him 
for 
our
 every need.

Philippians 
4:6
 says, 
“Do
 not 
be
 anxious
 about 
anything, 
but 
in 
every 
situation, 
by
 prayer
 and
 petition,
 with
 thanksgiving,
 present
 your
 requests
 to
 God.” 
Now,
 there’s
 a
 difference
 between
 a
 screaming 
baby 
that needs
 to
 be 
fed 
or 
needs a 
diaper 
change 
and
 one
 that 
just 
wants 
attention.  
We 
need 
to 
be 
wise 
about 
the
 petitions
 we 
bring 
to 
our 
Heavenly 
Father 
and 
make 
sure 
that we’re 
not 
mistaking 
our
 wants 
for 
needs.

When we
 don’t 
get 
what 
we
 want, if we’re not careful, 
we 
might 
be 
tempted
 to
 think 
He’s 
not 
listening to us.  
The
 cool
 thing
 is, 
unlike
 frazzled
 mommies
 and
 daddies
 who
 can’t
 always 
figure 
out
 what
 their
 babies
 are 
trying 
to 
tell 
them 
when
 they
 cry,
 our Heavenly Father 
knows 
exactly what 
our 
cries 
mean.
  He
 knows
 exactly
 what
 we
 need because He 
uniquely
 created 
each
 of 
us.


He
 knows
 our
 circumstances,
 our 
finances,
 our 
relationships, 
our 
schedules, 
our 
hurts,
 our 
hopes,
 our 
hearts.
  He
 knows 
how 
to
 sort
 through 
the
 swollen
 eyes 
and 
snotty 
nose
 to
 get
 to 
the 
root 
of
 the 
problem.
  Matthew
 6:8
 tells 
us 
that
 our
 Father 
knows 
what
 we
 need 
even 
before
 we
 ask
 Him. 
How
 cool 
is
 that?

I
 have 
to 
admit
 that
 there
 have
 been
 times
 when 
I 
have 
neglected 
to
 rely
 on
 God
 for
 my
 every need.
 Times
 when 
things 
were
 just 
clicking 
along 
and
 I
 didn’t 
really 
feel 
“in
 need” 
and 
it
 was 
easy 
to 
just 
kind
 of
 handle
 things
 on 
my
 own, to my own glory.  Of
 course 
the 
wheels
 would
 inevitably 
fall
 off 
of 
the 
wagon
 and
 I
 would 
be 
overwhelmed.
   I’ve 
had 
to 
humbly
 cry 
out 
for
 God’s
 forgiveness 
for 
my
 arrogance
 and 
for
 His 
saving
 grace
 to 
pull 
me
 out 
of
 whatever
 pit 
I 
found
 myself
 in.  
I’ve 
always 
been 
a
 self‐sufficient
 “get 
‘er
 done”
 kind
 of
 gal.  
It’s 
hard
 for
 me 
to
 rely
 on
 somebody
 else 
to 
meet 
a
 need.
  What
 I
 have 
to 
remember 
is
 that
 God 
isn’t
 just
 somebody
 else . . .He is God. Father. King of Kings.  

I 
suppose 
if 
He 
can
 create 
the
 universe 
and 
keep 
the
 world 
spinning
 on
 it’s
 axis,
 He 
can
 provide
 groceries 
or
 strength 
to 
put 
one 
foot
 in
 front 
of 
the 
other.  

I 
just 
have 
to 
lean 
into 
the 
promise 
of








 Philippians 
4:19, 
“And 
my 
God
 will
 meet
 all
 your 
needs
 according 
to 
the
 riches 
of
 His
 glory 
in 
Christ
 Jesus.” 
God
 wants
 to
 walk
 through 
all
 24
 hours of every
 day
 with 
us. 
He
 wants 
to 
share
 in 
those 
“Gerber 
moments”
 and 
He
 wants
 to 
help
 with 
the 
“laundry”.

Babies
 are 
awesome, because they
 rely
 on 
us 
for 
their 
every need 
without
 angst, 
without 
fear, 
without 
giving 
it 
a
 second 
thought.  
In light of that, I 
guess 
I 
had 
it 
wrong 
when
 as
 a 
kid 
I
 would 
get 
mad 
if 
someone 
called 
me 
a 
baby. 
Now, 
as 
I
 continue 
to 
grow
 in
 my 
walk 
with 
God, 
I 
want 
to 
be 
the 
biggest 
baby 
in 
the 
room.

-Lori

© Copyright Lori Higgins.

Lori is Zac’s mom and Lilah’s favorite mother-in-law. She’s been married to Lance for 23 years and lives in sunny California. She loves to spend her days outside fiddling and fixing things around their yard. Together, they love to spoil their kiddos (us!) in huge ways and we could never thank them enough. Throughout the year, you can always find her catching up on the latest sports game. She’ll definitely be the one to educate our little man on one of the most important topics in life: baseball!